Paul discovered y-day that our delinquent phone bill was paid. (Which is why our DSL and phone were never disconnected.) I should not be surprised at someone anonymously paying our phone bill, but I am! I was not at all expecting this... how in the world did someone trace down all that?! I should not be surprised that God would provide for this, since He has provided for so many other things as well.
I think the reason I feel "surprised" by generous humans and by God, is that I just feel so unworthy. Yes, I cried out to God and expected Him to answer... but I am still such a sinful creature. I am so short-tempered. I am so impatient with the kids (and myself, and Paul, and...). Yet, I know that God's good gifts do not depend on our good behavior and sinlessness. If they did, we would never even receive salvation.(Because He died for us while we were yet sinners! Romans 5:8) But, we know that "every good and perfect gift is from above" (James 1:17).
Also, y-day, we received another benevolent gift from a local church (the same church that sent the box with clothes in it! Paul is going to meet with the Pastor this morning and tell him thank you!). While I am very grateful and excited to see God provide, Paul is overwhelmed and quite beside himself.
Though we have differing reactions to the many blessings that God is bestowing on us, we are both very grateful for all the many gifts God is sending! We are grateful to our anonymous brothers and sisters who are being the hands of God to reach out to us at this time! We appreciate all your prayers! God is answering them!
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Bethany, several years ago, I was living on my own and making very poor financial decisions. I had way overextended myself, and was seriously struggling. At one point, I even went to a food pantry, because I had no money for groceries, and I was too proud to ask my parents for help. That Christmas, I'm sure I got several nice gifts, but I only remember one of them. My parents went filled up a large laundry basket with food and household needs (laundry detergent, dish soap, etc.).
The cat is kind of out of the bag this year, and I already know what my mom got me for Christmas. And it's something I really wanted, and I'm excited about it. But I have never been so overwhelmingly thankful, and aware of how blessed I am, than when I had nothing. That laundry basket might as well have been a new car. It is so neat to see that happening in you and Paul--to see joy despite your financial circumstances, and even because of them. Through this, I have seen you recognize your blessings for what they are and Who they come from, and that is really beautiful.
Oh, and I'm glad you still have the internet. :o)
I had a feeling! Thank you Lord.
I also had the feeling that it was being taken care of. I echo what April wrote. You being joyful and open and honest (even when it is hard) has been an encouragement to me. Now, we just have to wait for the best blessing of all - your new baby boy.
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